Confidence in Progress

Another day in the water—and I can feel the difference.

Today, I practiced combining hand movements with paddling in my own way. It wasn’t perfect, and I know there’s still a lot to improve. But I did it. And more importantly, I felt confident while doing it. 

That confidence—even more than the technique—is what satisfies me most right now. I’m not afraid, I’m not stuck, and I’m not giving up. I’m learning, growing, and becoming more sure of myself every time I show up.

Back in the Water, Moving Forward

After a short break, I was finally back in the pool today—and it felt really good; everything went smoothly. The movements, the water, the energy—it all came back naturally. The best part? Today, I added something new: hand movements. It felt like I’m one step closer to actual swimming. 

I’m eagerly waiting for the day when it all clicks—breathing, paddling, strokes—and I can swim on my own from one end to the other. That day doesn’t feel too far now. 

Bit by bit, splash by splash — it’s all coming together.

Sangser, Kalimpong 2023

Back to Routine After a Short Trip

After a refreshing three-day break for a short trip, it’s time to shift my focus back to what matters most right now: looking for freelance work, staying productive, and continuing to build toward a better future.

When Train Runs late

When a train runs late, it feels like the most disastrous thing is happening. The trouble starts at home, the moment I hear that it's been rescheduled. Everything shifts from that point — plans begin to change.

Right now, I’m still on the train, even though we were supposed to reach our destination three hours ago. The delay has thrown everything off balance. Waiting, adjusting, and hoping — that’s all there is to do for now.

Sometimes It’s Hard

Sometimes, it becomes hard not to believe. But the situation forces me to. When that happens, it feels like something is wrong, either from my side or the other side. I can’t stay calm. My mind keeps thinking about it.

Pause Before the Next Splash

Today’s swim felt a lot like yesterday — familiar, steady, and full of quiet confidence. I’m still using the kickboard, still keeping my head up, and still kicking strong. I can feel it: bit by bit, I’m building something solid. 

The hard part? Today was my last swim for the week. I won’t be attending classes until next Monday. And honestly, that makes me a little sad. I’ve grown to love this daily rhythm — the movement, the learning, the feeling of getting better. 

But there’s a happy reason behind the break: I’m going on a trip! So while swimming pauses for a few days, life brings a different kind of joy. New places, new memories — and maybe even water I can float in.

I’ll be back next week, ready to swim again.

Confidence in Motion

Today felt different—in the best way. 

I felt much more confident in the water. With the kickboard, I practiced head-up swimming and really focused on fast, steady leg movement. Everything started to come together. For the first time, I didn’t feel like I was just trying—I felt like I was doing. 

The water felt familiar, my body felt stronger, and my mind was calm. I know there’s still a long way to go, but it finally feels like I’m heading in the right direction.

Letting Go of the Wall

Another day in the pool, another small step forward. Today, I practiced paddling again—but this time, I used a kickboard instead of holding the side wall. It felt like a tiny leap of trust in myself. And it worked. I moved. Slowly, steadily. Forward. It’s nice to feel that shift—from holding on to letting go, even just a little. 

I’m definitely improving, and even though it’s still early, I can see the difference.